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updates and downs
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my milk came in!

so much to update you all.....

a few things in a nutshell:

1. dealing with jaundice a bit, waiting to here back from the dr. if she will need the ultraviololet light treatment thing.
but it's something we can do at home.

2. not getting much sleep (duh.) but we are getting more than in the 1st few days.

3. i am sore as hell and hobble around. i feel like there is a billiard ball pressing my ass at all times (TMI, i know)
and my recurring injury i have in my shoulder/neck, which is like a stabbing pain and makes me not be able to move has returned, making me very very upset.

4. M is an amazing, doting, loving, gentle, wonderful, patient father (as i knew he would be). and we work well together. ridiculously well!
we are a total team and we love each other so much and we love lili soooo much :)

5. oh ya, and i may as well just spit this out and tell you, because it's going to be said at some point so there is no point in keeping it a secret....
the night i gave birth the midwife suspected that lili may have downs. she had to go in and get some blood tests to confirm this and we are still waiting the results. but we are all quite sure she does by certain features she has and how she moves her tongue. it was intense, to say the least, to just give birth and want to celebrate that only to receive this news as well within a few minutes that she was born. we have no idea how moderate to severe it may be. it's nothing i did, it's just the way it is. she has an extra chromosone or something.
but we are adjusting and we love her just the same, of course. she is adorable and as sweet as pie.

6. because of her tongue issues, she has not been able to latch properly and i doubt she ever will. so i pump my milk and then m feeds it to her.
we are getting down a system and i'm going to get an electric pump. i was able to feed her my milk for the 1st time last night and i just cried and was so happy i was able to feed my child my milk. she greatly prefers my milk over formula (who can blame her?) and i am one happy mama cat to be able to give it to her. i'll go in for some lacatation consulting, but i seriously really doubt she is ever going to be able to latch even tho she loves my nipples and wants to breastfeed very much. it's just the way her body is. i don't think she can "unlearn" it. but we'll see. so if you see us giving her a bottle on the webcam, that is what that is about.
we had to give her formula the 1st few days because of her jaundice and dehydration. but it looks like i can give her breastmilk from now on. so yay :)
i am incredibly thankful.

7. she has blueish grey eyes and i know that a lot of babies are born with blue eyes and then it changes, but i don't think it will because her eyes are the EXACT same colour as m's :)

8. she makes the CUTEST sounds. like a baby on helium. it's off the scale adorable.

9. i'll write the birth story out soon. so far i have not had time.

10. we think her middle name is zuzu. we keep coming back to that. so that is probably what it is going to be.

Thanks so much for the update!

Lili is just a blessing in so many ways to so many people!

it would be a CRIME if zooey lulu and lili zuzu didn't become friends.

i'm sooo glad you're doing so well, lovie! eeeeeeeee ***huggsssssssssssss***

it would be a crime :)
yes, they will be friends somehow, i am sure :)

I'm a firm believer that our children chose us because they know we'll be the best parent for them and whatever "issues" they may have. Lili was meant to e your baby and that means you must be one amazing mama. That's what I think anyways. :)

You sound so happy, that's so wonderful! She is such a doll. :)

yeah, what she said.

Congrats on the beautiful baby.

oh ana, your the most amazing mommy ever!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs to you all}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

ANA ...

Our second daughter had jaundice and that machine is freaky ... sort of like having a "baby Borg" for a few weeks!

My eldest niece has Down's Syndrome ... and it has been quite a journey for my brother's family. Fortunately, most school systems have programs where Down's kids are able to be "mainstreamed" these days, removing much of the isolation and social stigma that accompanied the condition even a generation back. Needless to say, we've seen a lot of research on this over the past decade ... a good place to start for info is http://www.downsyndrome.com/

Visit the BTRIPP home page!

Downs or not, I really can't imagine Lili (I love Zuzu and hope you go with it) being born to a more special set of parents. She needs you and deserves you both. I hope you find it likewise.

I love this little family. I really do.

It's a great way to start the day, reading of such happiness and love. No matter what path fate sends Lili on, her path will be that much easier because she has such loving parents. Blessings!

it's hard for me to know what to say, so just know i am thinking of and loving all of you.

Lili is really adorable and I'm sure she'll be a sweet, smart, and loving person no matter what challenges she has to face. I hope the feeding thing continues to go well. My best friend just gave birth and she highly recommends an electric pump - she says, "Even cows get electric ones." ;)

ya, i need to get an electric to be sure!
just added one to the regisrty.

and fuzzybumblebee is going to get me a rented one today until i can get my own :)

she has been such an enormous help :)

blessings to all three of you and your beautiful, open hearts...<3 <3 <3

how sweet! i love zuzu it is perfect.
she is perfect no matter what. i have a special needs child and to me he is perfect, so i hear you on treating her with love no matter what!

I peeped in on your cam earlier and saw you with the manual pump and the little baby burrito nearby and I immediately let down. It was such a sweet and nostalgic sight. I had to call my 21 month old away from her banana to relieve my breasts.

I wish your family all the best.

I just wanted to say congratulations and that you and your new family are in my thoughts. How are your puppies doing with the new arrival? Big hugs to you all...

thank you :)
fuzzybumblebee took the doglets a few hours after i went into labour, and they are going to stay at her house until M and i have had time to adjust to our new lives.

but when they come back, it will be quite interesting to see what they are going to think of the new "puppy" in the house :)

Lili Zuzu is an amazing;y adorable name for a stunning beebee. It's challenging news to hear she's got downs but if anyone can raise a child with love, compassion and understanding I'm sure it's you, hun. Glad you get to give her your milk that's so very important!