last night i was so on edge and hormonal. crying at everything and being overwhelmed.
hurting and being uncomfortable and itchy.
i am so anxious and every little contraction i have puts me on alert.
when m gets home from work today (at 10pm) he is going to help me move furniture into the thing room because we need to make room in the bedroom for the birthtub.
all these things need to be taken care of NOW.
i can't relax until they are done.
i limp and moan and whimper about the house.
but i still have my good moments too and somehow manage to still have sex and laugh, as well.
m is my rock, my solid grounding. my partner.
he gives more more than enough hugs and kisses and comforting. makes me feel safe and consoles and soothes me.
and he never tires of it, it seems. his arms are always open to me.
he never runs out of touches.
even in his last moments of wakefulness at night his limbs always search to entangle me all pretzel like within him, and he hold me close as he drifts off.
i am so lucky.
in the morning, i nuzzle up to him more and drink in his sleepy smell from the back of his neck and he turns over to spoon me and envelope me.
he offers his fingers for me to chew on, and i nibble like a happy puppy then crash back into my pillow making contented cooing and clucking sounds.
i rediscover his morning hard on and grab hold of it singing "mmm mmm mmm"
it is a present for me and i make good use of it :)
then his hair dripping wet from the shower, he kisses each one of my eyes and little kisses for my lips.
he always kisses me goodbye many times before he leaves.
sometimes i run for the door for one more, pleadingly, i always get at least 3 more.
i am the luckiest person in all the world.
photo by jason shapiro.
taken at the walker art center last week.
my new hair.
i look slightly cranky, but i wasn't :)
dig my big ass sunglasses.
love that wallpaper.
it's thundering, lightning and pouring...90 degrees.
at 5:30 i go over to be interviewed for this new internet "tv show"
something to pass the time.
what to wear what to wear...
yesterday i went geocaching and found 2: