fascinating desire..i am not sure what to say...

:)

I wish I could tell you yes............

But I do think that, if anything, the constant flux of the first year usually is enough to dampen that desire, it not squash it all together.

I'm feeling the same way already, and I haven't even given birth to my first child yet! He isn't due until October and i'm already anticipating missing being pregnant, I thought I was crazy to feel this way, but I guess i'm not alone!
I never saw myself as being a mom to one child, let alone two-but being pregnant has made me realize I have a lot to share with the world, and what better way to do that than to raise an amazing human being-which makes me want to get pregnant again real fast!

You aren't the only one feeling this way, but i'm looking forward to finally feeling my baby kick from the outside rather than the inside, only a few weeks to go!

I can't relate when it comes to wanting to be pregnant again, but I have been feeling like Zooey needs a bebe sister to hug and dance with. We absolutely can't afford to have another one, so I'll hug and dance instead.

too bad we don't live near each other so lili and zooey could play together! :(

maybe gat another puppy or a kitten?!

ha, i already have 3 dogs and that is quite enough :)

ok.
maybe one of my life sized dolls to dance with?
they do trap right on to u & u can be a puppet!\
;p

i have 11 mannequins :)

but yes, i do need one of your dolls! :)

shit, u have me beat.
most mannequins i had at once was 6...

yes, u do need one of my creations like i need one of your hats!

I am not really sure what to write...I am thinking that maybe after a few months of baby-ness you will be glad that you only have one to care for right now?

I'm at a point where I could give birth at any moment (or at least start to...) and only now am I feeling any sense of sadness (not quite dread) about not being pregnant anymore soon. I've not really enjoyed a lot of the extra attention I've gotten though; I'm a very private person & I feel so vulnerable right now in a world where people can really suck sometimes. I wonder if I'll feel as you do in the upcoming weeks?

I had this exact same feeling after giving birth to my first daughter. I thought I would be so relieved to be 'not-pregnant', but then when it finally happened, I felt a tremendous loss. She was now outside of me and no longer a part of me. I felt empty and missed the experience of being pregnant. I missed anticipating the changes of my body, of knowing that there was a little being inside of me...I don't know how to explain it...it was as if I had a purpose beyond anything I could ever expect to ever experience again. I felt very alive and everything seemed to have such significance. Of course, I love my daughter and was overjoyed to have a healthy, beautiful baby girl. I became pregnant a few years later and gave birth to a second daughter. I enjoyed being pregnant once again, but for whatever reason, the same feeling of having lost something wasn't as strong the second time around. I don't know what the reasoning is or what the answer should be for you, but I can totally relate to how you feel.

It's part of post-partum depression, that many people don't realize. It's not just the baby, but the loss of the being inside you that can cause it. The hormones are wacky things.

i'm not at all depressed. i know what depressed feels like and what it is.
this is a primal urge to create another being...it's a completely different feeling.

the only thing that sucks is being sleep deprived and that is rather depressing. yet even tho it is a depressing thing (getting no sleep) i still don't feel depressed. as in i don't feel hopeless or sad and i have not lost interest in things that are important to me.

wanting to have another child or be pregnant again feels nothing like being depressed. it kind of feels like the opposite, actually :)

i still feel the loss 6 years later. i am not so struck by wanting to have another kid all the time, but i deeply miss feeling pregnant.
the hormones do seem to particularly do a number on rationality in the few months after birth. good luck my friend.

you had a great time being pregnant, so it would make sense you would miss it :)

hey, we will get together and make batts soon!
i keep flaking to email you about it

My cousin responds to pregnancy this way. She has several kids, but always wants to be pregnant.

I know exactly how you feel. I have a little boy about to turn 6, a little free spirit, wild child girl who is 4 and a my youngest is about to turn 8 months. I have my hand full, yet i miss being pregnant. Thought having another would probably put me in the looney bin.

You're special when you're pregnant. People look at you and swoon. They want to touch your belly and share their thoughts with you. But don't worry, you're still very special. We all love you and your beautiful family!

Lili is an adorable princess. I hope you post more pictures soon!

What you're feeling is completely normal...not irrational at all. You carried her for nine months and the two of you were one for so long that now your feeling empty and separated from her (so to speak). You want that feeling of wholeness back. I can sort of understand and I think once your hormones level out you'll feel more like your self again...just not the self you may be longing for right now. Hang in there!!!

I say go for it--the feeling must be a sign! I never enjoyed being an only child, and it is so fun to watch two play together.

I know it sounds dramatic, but I feel that being an only-child is a sort of curse. I was lonely and it was a huge handicap, socially. I was blessed with 4 younger step-siblings when I was already in my 20's and I am just thrilled to be able to say "my sister", "my brother" and I just cherish them.

I'm an only child too. Adopted late in life. My Mother has metasticized cancer, my Father and Grandparents are long gone. I have a son, thank God. But I know the feeling of being lonely all too well. The upside is that you socialize with adults a lot, get a lot of attention, and have a terrific vocabulary before other kids can even say, "Pass the sugar."

I'm glad you ended up getting siblings after all.

Hugs,
Jac

Seriously...I guess it might make you more independent (or maybe not), but I agree with the social issue. I was so shy. And I always wanted a sibling to play with AND I wanted someone else for my mom to yell at besides me! Ha ha ha!

I cried when I found out I was pregnant the second time. Then I cried when my husband got a vasectomy and I knew I'd never have another baby. That feeling of longing for another baby lasted for years for me. It eventually fades....and reason takes over. And yes...on the hormones causing these feelings....damn evil things.

I hope you know you are a queen bee whether or not you decide to carry another child again. :)

and maybe this world needs more people with an extra chromosome.

:) The world doesn't usually think that way. Chassidim tend to think that children with severe mental impairment might be holy souls...that maybe these humans are gifted in other ways by God.

I've been reading you for awhile, and just want to say...I know that feeling. Oh, do I. I have 5 kids under 8 years old, and have also had a 2nd trimester miscarriage in that time. And even now, after disastrous emergency c-sections and being so busy and so sleep deprived...my sex drive wants to be productive. My body wants to unite and create. I ache for that "put a baby in me". I could make a lifetime out of belly castings, blessingways, sewing my own maternity clothes, tandem nursing and cloth diaper collections.

But no...no, I'll keep with my creeping slow one class at a time college schedule, and crochet and read and try to be fulfilled by homeschooling and dancing with the ones I have. Try to glory in being able to give them the most attention I have.

Nature is strong.

I so remember this feeling, so so so sooooo remember it. It felt like such a huge loss which is why I'm sure I must have written to you about making the most out of the time you have with your belly. I always tell Mommies this because it was so acute for me, this feeling of loss. I still grieve the loss of the feeling of bonding with Beau in my belly when I would take a bath. I miss being pregnant, it doesn't seem like it would make sense, but I still do, even after all of these years. It IS primal, it just is. I just wanted to say that I understand the loss. Obviously it gets better and less acute and you are so sleep deprived and your hormones are totally whacked out, but it's a real thing, I hear you. I understand and I'm sorry Mama belly.

Love You So Much,
Jacqui

ana...we were online friends long ago (i had a different name then), and we got into a bit of a tiff and I haven't really kept up with you since then. I heard through the grapevine of the internet that you were pregnant and I felt very happy for you -- you seem completely thrilled and happy with lili and M -- congrats.

i feel compelled to write you now, all these years later, because my youngest brother has Downs and he is the most amazing angel I've ever met. Because of him, I have worked with special needs kids and adults for most of my life. Downs folks really are special -- loving in ways that I could never imagine. I am not sure what you are feeling right now -- but just know that you are in for an amazing experience. Also, I'm sure you're already innundated with information and all this newness, but there are TONS of free resources available out there for families with special needs kids. I hope you are able to access a great early-development program.

Anyway...much love to you and your family
A

Hello Ana,

I have two lovely children. I really got into my pregnancies, I felt so juicy and healthy and right at the brim of life not to mention the satisfaction of growing the fruit of my lovers seed. It sounds like you would love to be pregnant again but not entirely wanting another child, there is a difference here right? I think pregnancy is also experiencing the most natural high, it's such a potent, holy feeling. We are so lucky to be born female! Even though your little sweetie pie is outside in the light of your body you are now pouring yourself into her as though she is your garden. Take x-tra good care of yourself and she will benefit.

~ xx,lmnop

I don't know what it is, but I felt exactly the same way after Ben was born. I think part of it was that he was such a wonderful baby ... I wanted to fill the world with more Bens. :)

I've been stopping in to check on you guys so often I just decided to add you to my friends list. :)

I know the feeling you describe above quite well. I think I have finally stopped rubbing my belly; for a few weeks, I caught myself stroking that weird, floppy stomach and then realizing, sadly, that there's no longer a baby in there. You're right - we're not given much time to adjust to the emptiness.

We're also well acquainted with the faerie/troll dichotomy. Nora's smiles turn into grimaces in a split second and she's like an entirely different baby.

Nora says, "Hi, Lili," and wants Lili to know that if she ever wants to play and be friends, she's all for it.

Hi Ana,

I thought you would like to read this.

Milla Jovovich is pregnant, she's such a spiritual person: http://www.millaj.com/from/index.shtml

Peace :-)

Julie