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tomorrow i have my 1st ultrasound at noon.
i am excited and nervous!
i'm supposed to drink about 32 oz of liquid before it happens.
i don't know if that will be physically possible for me to do!
i hope everything checks up ok!
and maybe tomorrow i will know closer as to whether or not it is a boy or a girl?
eeee! i am SO CURIOUS but mostly i just want to know it is developing normally and is healthy.
i so much want to know that!
i will post a photos of the ultrasound so you can see!
i can't believe i will see "matoog" MOVE!
i am going to "see' right into my belly!
my mom, M, and my midwife (me and matoog!) will be there.
a day of things starting with m :)
mmmm!
i am nervous!
nnnnn!
keep your fingers crossed for us and send us good juju!
it's all i can think about.
today i am just trying to keep myself occupied by watching tv, resting, typing nervously, ohhhhhhhm.

i burn candles and incense.
it's grey and coldish today.

the other day it was freakishly warm.

here is the 1st video we have made for our little "matoog"
m and i walked to the river, i had a terrible cold and i sound like i am 7 years old!

http://www.anacam.com/lj2007/for_matoog_032507.AVI (7.15MB)



(why did it choose THAT still from it? lol :) m is chewing gum :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83LW2tVMRWs

i am finally over my cold but it really kicked my ass there for a good week.
i'm just now recovering and getting back to normal.
but even "normal" isn't very normal for me now.
matoog squirms in me more and more, tickling my cervix and sides of my belly.
the newest form of entertainment is watching my belly actually MOVE!
it's like a science fiction movie.
sometimes i have a freak out melt down session about it as i realize that the impending day where it will have to squeeze out of tiny hole in me is coming up faster and faster. i go HOW CAN I DO THIS OH MY GOD???!!!!
but i have to breathe and cry and just flip out and realize that it's going to happen and i can only trust in the grace of my body and the universe that it will all work out. i do not have a huge tolerance for physical pain, but i hope to rise to the occasion, somehow, when that moment arrives. and M helps me and soothes me and reassures me. he is my love :) i am not alone :)
it's hard to imagine i will soon be holding a mini human being and my body will be making MILK!
will the dogs think it is a new puppy?

i had an interview with jornal do brasil today about my cam, and i'll let you know when that comes out.
http://www.jb.com.br

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yay for you! look into hypnobabies!

aw that's so sweet :))))) (vid)

That was one, if not the most beautiful youtube's I've ever watched. You should post more. How wonderful for you two!!

that is really cool. he or she will really love this when they are older.

YouTube sets an image from the mid-point of the video as the still-frame. You can use this "feature" to your advantage.

*SQUEEEL*
That was so cute and sweet. ♥

this is a very sweet video and LJ entry.

I loved listening to you talk to "matoog"; we have given our lil fetus the name "kicky" and have silly conversations with kicky - I feel so inspired by your creativity and sentimentality. documenting yourself and baby during pregnancy is wonderful!

and... I can relate to a lot of the shifting feelings and realizations. I still have stretches of time where I completely forget I am pregnant, then I pass my reflection and see my swollen belly and think "holy shit" and then I exclaim, "there's a person inside of me and it's going to come out of me" and my husband looks at me and says "uhh YEAH, you keep saying that"... and I have a fascination with the concept of working breasts/milk factory too.

have FUN at the ultrasound! we were at first nervous about it but it was completely blissful and I was elated and ecstatic after seeing baby move and squirm and listen to its heartbeat. you will receive a couple of great still photos too that you can enjoy.

everytime I get nervous about pregnancy, labor and delivery I remember that we've been doing it for thousands and thousands of years and that somehow realigns it in my mind.

joyful time
xo

such a sweet little video. thanks for sharing that.

woooow! i just love reading how you write about your pregnancy, i think i would feel the same way. it's all so exciting and frightening yet "normal".
i LOVED the video too, what a wonderful thing to do for your child! =]

That video is just darling. I hope the ultrasound is ultra-awesome. haha. I can't believe I said something so cheesy. Oh well, I'll leave it. Maybe it will be funny.


im excited for you guys!!! i found out one of my best friends is having a baby this september!!! another should have had their baby on sunday. babies are popping out everywhere!!

hi ana, matoog will like this video for sure) i had my ultrasound yasterday OMG my seed was sucking a finger and The seed has such a beatiful face i think she looks like a father. i didn`t see the gender but now i have no doubt about it. doctor says that my seed is SO active and i know it myself as my belly always dancing. pearl dance.
i am really interested how is yours?

matoog is one lucky matoog!
you guys are going to be amazing parents:)

i'm so excited about that ultrasound!!!
i'll be thinking of all of you.

anna, that video is beautiful. i feel like i could cry. its so wonderful and sweet of you to have this video to show your child not only, your lives before (s)he is born, but how much you already loved her. you can hear it in your voices. this is very special. you will be an amazing mommy.
thank you for this today, you made me feel happy to be someone's daughter.

love

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