http://blip.fm/voog

ooo, a new thing to play with :)

violet luna
born february 8th at 11:43pm
7 pounds 13 ounces
20 inches long

a 26 hour labour!
details later
recovering!

THIS IS M EVERYBODY __ ANA"S WATER' JUST BROKE -- WISH US LUCK!!!!!!

emmettsl

i don't know how many of you remember Emmett.
but he was a member of ana2 for almost the entire time.
i would always wish him a happy birthday on cam.
he was a very sweet person.

i just found out that he passed away this year....

i feel so completely odd and at a loss for what to say
and what a weird way to find out.

i feel very sad but i am glad he is in a more peaceful place.

the last email he wrote to me he told me he was not feeling very well...

wow....

today is anacam's 11th ana-versary

http://www.anacam.com

unlike most cams, this one goes to 11 :)

i am trying to find the time to write about it!

crazy times!

http://worshiptheglitch.com/2008/06/jd-casten-discusses-ana-voog-dreaming.html

an interview with j.d. casten who put together the book about my art (http://www.voogbooks.com/).
it's interesting for me to see my friend talk about his views on the whole project :)
i've been so busy with lili, the upcoming wedding, and now the new pregnancy that i can barely take it all in...

but for those of you interested in this limited edition book about me, i suggest you read this interview for a more in depth view on it!

and j.d. is a fascinating person in his own right. i think someone should make a book about HIM! :)

http://www.voogbooks.com/

a book about me and my art that my friend, j.d. casten, put together!
go look!

it was the best year of my life :)

i'm not a person to ever follow a recipe...but i want to learn new things.
so...i'd like to learn some things by reading some cookbooks and see how other people cook.

so tell me your favourite cookbooks of all time.

i'm especially looking for morroccan, greek, and french
also jewish and scandanavian.

but i'm really interested in just about everything.

so hit me with your best cookbooks so i can go check them out :)

p.s. i like cookbooks where you make EVERYTHING from scratch and where real ingredients are used not things like margarine or boullion cubes, etc.
i'm not interested in adding a can of this and that together and then voila. i'm not afraid of things that are labour intensive.

for the first time in my life i am not just a sex symbol, a mere shadow of what sex is about, but i am making love...and making love at the deep level that creates new life.

my body is not in it's best shape, but for the first time it is creates the source of nourishment for my child and gives pleasure to my man.

i am deeply fulfilled.
i feel purposeful and real.
neccessary and primal.
i am at my core.
my heart.

my life is full of love.
everything i give is returned to me a millionfold.

i walk around in my pajamas and make chicken soup.
he buys me daisies and kisses my eyes.
total comfort and trust.

this is what life is about for me.

from lilizuzu

photo by jason s. shapiro

a family of cats for halloween :)
lilizuzu is 3 months old now

*beams* :)

as you can see, i am still sleep deprived, because this cracks me up to no end!
especially because i have a voice that goes with this, and maybe i will have to record it for you.
actually there is a whole flash animation in my head that goes with this...monty python style.

today is my 1st day being all alone with her, as M has gone back to work.
i am a sad mama cat and i am nervous. (i also think i got my period today for the 1st time since pregnancy)
lili, printheth of thee unicornth, child of go, rules me from her command center...the white noise midi file spewing graco swing.
i am her loyal subject, milk maker, and toe kisser

i am stupidly in love with "the buh" :)
her sweet smells, her little soft parts, her funny sounds.
everything she does completely fascinates me and i watch her constantly with amazement.
it is weird to think that i could never go back to the way things were before..even theoretically if i could go back to a time she did not exist, i could not handle life without her now that i know she is possible.
my life would not be as full without her. the smell and sound and feel of her are permanently part of me now. part of my soul, this earth, my experience, this life.
i could never go back to how things were.
my life will never be the same.
my entire being will never be the same.
i have taken the step through through the portal, the looking glass.
i am on the other side now and there is nowhere else i'd like to be.
i knew i would love her more than anything, but to be here really experiencing this love now is intoxicating. i am the mama cat. the ana mothership has finally arrived.

***

ooo, m and i came up with cool new life plans tonight :)
i hope we can make it work!
if we can, our lives and of course then anacam and ana2 will go in a new exciting direction :)
it involves traveling around the country in a van with a mobilecam. (girlreinvented i need to get your knowledge on this!)
the traveling voog family!
ooo i want it to work so much!
new things! new things to take photos of! new adventures!
(and maybe making a buh #2 :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLwUH3l0E5Y

september's here again...

tomorrow we are going up to my dad's because on sunday he is going to baptize her (he is a lutheran minister in case anyone did not know)
he is really excited to be able to do this :)

i have much to say but i am so so sooo tired.
i will take pix of the baptism, of course, and put some up here after i get back :)

we bought an obscenely butt ugly graco baby swing today that plays nasty classical midi music and has "nature sounds" and vibrates and swings.
it is soooooo UGLY but we were desperate!
"The Buh" loves it so far and we hope it will calm her when she is in her spaz mode.

right now she is sitting in it like a little buddha having a dream.